I'm Ready

Times have changed

It's a new day

My life can go

Any which way

It took some time

To heal and grow

But with the passing days

Now I know

I am me

I am strong

And where I am now

Is where I belong

I will not forget

But learn from the past

I look toward the future

My options are vast

I'm done with this
I'm moving on

No more looking back

All sadness gone

I'm ready to live

I'm ready to love

I'm moving on

I'm all the above

So watch out world

Here I come

Always remembering

Where I'm from

writers block

I was going to blog...wanted to post a poem that i wrote this morning, as I attempted to write - I couldn't. Maybe I'll be able to write, then post later =)

Worn Out

Wow back to the not a late night person....this last weekend was crazy and lots of late nights - once again! Although all of these friend gatherings and family weekends are totally worth it, the lack of sleep is starting to wear on my body.
Example one: Yesterday I went to church, did nothing all day except grocery shopping and went to a friends volleyball game - then I was chilling on the couch just resting and woke up at 8:45. I calculated with the show I was watching I had only been sleeping for about 15 minutes, however, I got up immediately and went right to bed and did not wake up until 6:15, just in time for work. Who says there is such a thing as too much sleep - it felt amazing!
Example two: Today after work I was doing my bills and apparently as soon as I set my laptop down, I fell asleep on the couch, for at least an hour. Sadly, to make sure that I am able to sleep tonight, I had to make myself stay awake. I was able to do it, but my couch is just so comfortable =)
So much for doing all I wanted to tonight, however, I totally am going to Wii Fit it up as soon as I'm done writing this - then I may play my banjo a little bit before heading to bed - we'll see if I can make it that far. Only time will tell...

Interpretation

A lot happens in an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year, a lifetime. It's weird to think that each of us remembers how things happen in our own separate way. This really came to my attention while we each were reading my Auntie Mary's beginnings of her novel.

Memories are exactly that, how you remember it, and she made sure to tell that to her sisters prior to reading her writings. With Grandma Gick gone, her children often get into many arguments and battles, ending up in phone calls to other family members asking for the "answer" which still doesn't seem to solve the debate.

With these discussions being brought up frequently this weekend with yet again, another wonderful "family" gathering, it made me think. I have all my moments remembered in my mind and with some on paper. However, very few of those events happened to me while I was alone. It's weird to think that how I remember things, may not be how they really happened - or at least how others think they happened. Even if you keep emotion and personal opinion out of stories to keep it as matter-of-factly as possible, individual interpretation always seems to be different.

I wish Mary luck to her new position as an author =) and expect a signed copy once completed. I also encourage her siblings to write the same stories, but with their interpretation of "what really happened" and it can be a series!

Write on, make your life the most enjoyable story to read, cry to, laugh to, and pass on to others!

snowy day

So each day I think, hm I really should post a new blog, but don't know what to write about. This week has been pretty low key with two nights where I had the luxury to to absolutely nothing other than lay on the couch and go to bed early. That was AMAZING!

I'm not a late night person but last weekend tested my abilities when I gathered with some family, where we played Rock Band, board games, dice and SPOONS =) A few broken nails later, I still lost...sad. Goodbyes are hard and I can't wait until it's time to say "Hello" again, they are much more fun.

This week continued the stretch of seeing good friends that have moved away and were back to visit. I always promise myself not to stay out late, but it's so hard not to get caught up in yummy food, good company and great conversation....3+ hours later it's past my bedtime and still have a drive home to go.

Snow has come today but it won't stop the gatherings....

Time for Food, Fun and Family

Well, it's crazy to think that Christmas has come and gone for 2008. I got what I wished for: a white Christmas...and oddly enough, so did my brother and sis-in-law in Tumwater, WA (which almost never happens), so they really enjoyed that.

Last weekend my parents and I made the trek down to Wayne America (as people like to call it...although its a lil dinky town in NE) to attend my sister-in-law's graduation for her Masters in Education - Way to go Erin!!! Talk about snow - Nebraska got hammered with snow, the poor college grounds crew had to work like crazy to clear the parking lots and sidewalks for this ceremony to happen, huge snow piles were banked up on each side and in the middle of all the roads. But the show went on and and Erin walked across the stage.

From there, we headed to Fremont to hangout with her family and do our Christmas thing. Ben had to work the day before and after Christmas back at the running store in Washington so they only had a quick "long" weekend to spend with both families. It was a good time with lots of homemade goodies and loud laughter. Surprisingly Ben and I get along a lot better now that he lives so far away, distance really does make the heart grow fonder =) Naw, I always loved him, but that sibling rivalry can get to be a lot when you're living so close...

Below is their finished present:

The best thing of the whole weekend was probably bowling. Erin and I started out strong and strutting our Team Crabtree shirts...but quickly faded when our mom's drastically out shown us - making us take off our Crabtree shirts, no Crabtree would want to claim us with our poor performance. Good time all in all.

This weekend was low key, with lots of fun family time. I got mom to play a little Wii but dad said he was completely content just watching...party pooper....we did some after Christmas shopping and got some great deals.

With all said and done - Merry Christmas to All, I hope everyone's was a blessed holiday!

The Light in the Darkness

Well, I had my EEG and the results came back normal, so good news all-in-all. My previous post was all about my list and explaining what I was going to do during my sleep deprivation time frame. However, I came to one main conclusion.... While I had plenty of things to do, it is very hard to get motivation to do ANYTHING at 1 in the morning.

I was shocked but pleasantly surprised to see that some of my friends are online long into the night. One of them even stayed up until 4!!!! Crazy and insane, but helped me stay awake and kept me company. I did get all my presents wrapped (even ran out of tape but improvised with my UPS packing tape). With chatting with friends and talking online the wrapping took a little longer than planned, but honestly from 1-4 in the morning...what else is there to do. Slow and steady wins the race...

Come about 4, I decided it was time to work on my brother and sister-in-law's present. I had already gotten them a present that they can use on their door step at their new house. I also was trying to be a little crafty. They had sent me a picture of them running together, which I then cropped them out and put them into a prettier background. Once that was all arranged, I traced the picture then retraced it with carbon paper beneath onto a piece of wood.
Here is what I had gotten done by 6:

...To...

About 6 my hands were not as rested and steady as needed to complete the background, so I let my tools cool as I finished a little present for my dear cousin's girl that I can't wait to give her.

Finally about 7 I was done with my projects, at least those I had the motivation to do and was ready to shower. Ready just in time for papa to come pick me up and drive me to my appointment. Luckily for me, north of us got hit pretty hard with quite a bit of snow and bitter cold so his work crews got called off and he didn't have to drive up there and was able to chauffeur me around for the morning.

Much to my happiness, the appointment only lasted a half hour, we stopped at a few stores then ate breakfast at Perkins. The rest of the day: All Mine to lay down, sleep, relax and yeah...not have to use my already very tired brain...