Something About It

Friday was a wonderful day. Why you might ask? If you were to ask, I'd tell you this:

Fridays are usually my clinic day at work, but for some reason we didn't have any veteran's scheduled. Because of this it was a huge catch up and documenting day. I even got to be a little proactive - which is VERY uncommon for me, at least at work. There is usually too many emergencies walking through my door for me to be able to look ahead. Anyway, I had decided that I was going to take full advantage of my no clinic Friday - and leave early. When there is clinic, we don't really know when it will get over so it's hard to leave early - at least planned.

But this Friday I could. I put in for a couple hours of comp. time and it was approved. Next task, to make sure NOTHING comes up to get in the way of me leaving early - which is a regular occurrence. 1:30: my phone rings...I have a half hour to go, I have to answer, but please be a simple question. It was, whew. 1:45: phone rings again...just a fellow co-worker just scaring me knowing I want to leave early and checking to see if I'd answer...how kind.... Now I just pray it doesn't ring again. If it does when I'm in my office, it would bother me all weekend of not knowing how urgent the call was. 2:00: no more calls and I'M OUTTA HERE!

I already had planned to work out today, and now I could get to the gym before everyone else takes up the treadmills. Especially on cold days like this, I change at work so I don't lose motivation between work and the gym (this is something I have learned to do from experience...) I hurry to change and sneak out the back door to the parking lot to make sure no one stops me in the hall because they "need something." Safe!

As I'm driving away and to the gym, I have a weird sense of accomplishment. There is just something about not being at work when you "are supposed to be" and when everyone else is working that just feels glorious! Throughout my whole run I just kept thinking, this is so great - I'd be sitting at my desk and here I am, running.

It's not like I did anything fun or special. It was just a much needed, yet little, break from the regular tasks that can begin to haunt a schedule. Once in a while we all need little breaks like that and this one couldn't have come at a better time.

I ran three miles and still got done over an hour before would have actually been outta work. I was home, showered and relaxing on the couch when I would have just been locking my office door. My puzzle has come a long way. It's a slow process starting as OCD can get in the way of enjoying puzzles, but once you get moving, my organizational skills make it much easier and faster. Then off to a great night of eating at Olive Garden and bowling with friends.

Low key and relaxing - couldn't have asked for better.

Prayer for Grandpa

All That's Left

I’m so torn
How long can this go
As each minute passes
This anxiety grows

It’s out of our control
This I understand
All we can do is trust
And put it in God’s hand

So here we sit
With nothing to do
While this stress continues
And we worry for you

The only thing left
For us to try
Is keep on praying
In Him I lie

All my hopes
All my fears
Only Jesus can count
All my tears

He’s here with you
He’s here with me
And with no more suffering
I pray you’ll be

I got it back!

After a while struggling to write, I got it back...at least for tonight, here's my second one of the night:

Little Things

I like quiet
I like noise
I like to hang out
And be one of the boys

I like sunshine and flowers
The fresh smell of rain
And looking out the window
Up high in a plane

Popsicles and Kool-aid
On a hot summer day
Looking up at night
Seeing the Milky Way

The sweet taste of watermelon
Fresh on my tongue
Letting go of stress
And enjoy being young

To laugh out loud until
My stomach hurts
And with no regret
Have a second dessert

The beautiful colors
That come in the fall
Being with friends and
Playing football

Little things in life
Are what make me
Happy and joyous
And full of glee

Each day that comes
There is good to see
But seeing that good
Is up to me

Crush

There is something special
What is it that you do
That makes me check my phone
Every minute or two

You make me laugh
You make me smile
I hope this feeling
Lasts a while

How it feels around you
I cannot hide
So I just sit back
And enjoy the ride

It's been a long time
Since I've felt like this
But seeing your eyes smile
Is just pure bliss

You caught me by surprise
I had no clue
That my feelings would start
To grow on you

I hope its not just me
I hope you feel it too
How can I be falling
Head over heals for you

We haven't even been
On a date
But in my mind
You're worth the wait

Look at me
Look at what you've done
You make me happy
And help me have fun

So without you knowing
I want to thank you
For letting me see
The real person in you

I've really done it now...

As if I'm not running around like a chicken with my head cut off the way it is...I can't believe I add another thing to do to my day/week/schedule. Some may think I'm crazy, and what do I say to that? They are probably right.

So what is it you ask???? The picture might say it all....

Don't let the poor quality of the picture fool you, this is ROCK BAND 2, with the microphone, the drum set and guitar! It's hours of pure fun and bliss! Ahhh, now you get it, that's why I have not been on blogging much in the last couple days...yes, you'd be correct, I've been much too busy on my Wii to even consider taking the time to tell you how EXCITED I am.

Thanks to Rob and Sarah and them introducing me to this, I have been addicted since the first weekend in January...and looking almost daily for this incredible buy. However, apparently so was everyone else. I'd use my breaks (and sometimes non-breaks) to call stores all over Sioux Falls to find out if they had it in stock. Most were pretty cryptic saying, no and not saying when they expect more in and/or when they even get truck loads in. However, there were two helpful stores: Shopko and Target. I always knew I loved Target for a reason...I was told "Thursday at the earliest" by the young woman at Shopko and Target say "We get trucks in every day and don't know what's on them until they are here, call every day after 11." AND I DID.

This Thursday I, skeptical yet hopeful, picked up my phone and called Shopko...nope, still nothing. Then Target. The man on the phone said, so casually, "Yup, we got two." WHAT, how can he be so casual about this, I've been addicted and not playing for almost a month...I need that. "Can you hold it?" Skeptically asked, "For how long...?" "Less than a half hour, I'm leaving work now...from Sioux Falls, be right there," as I threw on my coat and grabbed my purse.

I was successful, pure success, they held it, and I got it. Oh the pains of going back to work with Rock Band sitting in my trunk, in the cold, all alone....wanting to be played so badly. But I did, not without telling everyone I work with how amazing that phone call was. Thursday night I get home, start taking it out of the box, no doubt those lil packagers that put that thing in the box were way smarter than me, wow...that was a workout in itself. I got it out, just in time for me to have to LEAVE! Ugh, so tempting to call and say, no, I won't make it tonight, however, my banjo practicing has really slipped the last couple weeks and I needed to go...

But the last two days? Rock on! It has been played and played and played. My mom was jamming out to We Got the Beat and I've already had friends over to start a band. With this, It's very dangerous that I may get NOTHING done for the rest of my life. To prevent that, I had to make a schedule:

Work

Workout

Banjo practice

Eat

Wii or whatever I choose, most likely will be wii =)

Somewhere in there I may find time to blog, if you don't hear from me, I'm most likely alive. Call if you like, just to make sure...

I'm Ready

Times have changed

It's a new day

My life can go

Any which way

It took some time

To heal and grow

But with the passing days

Now I know

I am me

I am strong

And where I am now

Is where I belong

I will not forget

But learn from the past

I look toward the future

My options are vast

I'm done with this
I'm moving on

No more looking back

All sadness gone

I'm ready to live

I'm ready to love

I'm moving on

I'm all the above

So watch out world

Here I come

Always remembering

Where I'm from

writers block

I was going to blog...wanted to post a poem that i wrote this morning, as I attempted to write - I couldn't. Maybe I'll be able to write, then post later =)